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bad night, bad day ok. last night outing with desmond wasnt that good. i mean, it was ok.. but like, nothing special. It was plain. Just another movie. He did all the talking and i did all the listening. he keeps talking on and on abt te caucasians. sigh. cant blame him. after all, he does study with them what. Anyway, i think i dont want to go to NDP with zhijia already. Last night i talked to YX, asked him if he going with Zhijia then he sai hope so.. then i felt so guilty.. i mean.. who am i to want to go with Zhijia ma... yx is like his best friend, so yea. if i go, I'd feel damn bad. so if zhijia asks yx to go, i wont banana la. Actually I'd never have banana-ed la. It's stupid to banana. hahas, after all, he's my daddy!~ It's only right that mommy and daddy get to go on a date together. haha. Hmmm. I guess I'd still feel a bit sad la. If only 3 of us could go together. Wasnt that the initial plan? to hopefully get 4 tickets, so that 3 of us could go together? Fun sia!! Now like definitely Zhijia and one other person.. so sad. Hai. Today has been tiring in school. surprisingly i didnt sleep at all. but on my way home i was like a zombie. suddenly i felt that school sucked. Suddenly i missed SA all over again (not like i ever stopped missing them) suddenly i felt my heart ache again. it's really painful, really. i dont know why but it just hurts. maybe it's because i like it so much, and i knew i could try appealing in and can get in, but i wasnt even allow to try. Not even have a taste of it. so like, ew? i hate it i really do. Hate the feeling. My class now form cliques already. Not very nice actually. it's like ther are some outcasted people. you guys know who la. i really dont wanna say much. It's quite sad to see that. But anyways, thank God I've got Lys, Ash and Lianne. Gabrielle too. =) I hope that our class will learn to cooperate. and sometimes i cant help but wonder. does Frank think i like him? Because many people from the first week of school already thought that i had something for him, while all along I've only had eyes for ZJ. Quite sad sia. i think he's avoiding talking to me because of this. And i dont see myself being extra nice to him. I'm nice to everyone what. I'm just scared of Mahadi la.. he freaks me out with all his sexual thoughts. but yet, i dont treat him any much different than the rest what. but in class i like Uncle the most, as in out of all the guys. wells cos i find that Uncle is the most fair there, he mixes well with everyone and yea.. i find has a great personality. Uncle if you happen to read this please dont get your head big ok? hahas. take care, all~ |
